I Feel You Watchin Me

people watching1I know, you got your eyes on me/ I feel you watchin me/ But it ain’t hard to see that you can’t see me/ You try, but what you think you saw/ Ain’t what you thought you saw/ You bed-da off not lookin at all”-The Watcher (Jay-Z, Rakim, Dr. Dre, Truth Hurts)

The football game was over and I was trying to get to Izzy, my partner. He played a hell of a game.  I saw a group blocking my way to him. Ordinarily I don’t care when all eyes are on me but I was in the middle of an investigation and I didn’t know who all the bad guys were.  I felt a little intimidated at first, like they were all going to jump me at once, but then I remembered that we were in college—not high school.

“We heard about your date with Thor. Once in a while he goes out with a plain-Jane or an ethnic girl to raise money for racial awareness. Isn’t he like so Brad Pitt? Bet he took you somewhere really nice. Somewhere you could have the entree and the buffet right? Isn’t that right Meaghan?” Suzy the blond head cheerleader threw the insult over her shoulder to Meaghan, a black girl with red hair. I couldn’t help it. I started smiling. She was really funny. I felt like I was on a television show. The head cheerleader Suzy is trying to bully me to stay away from the quarterback. Come on, that shit was funny.
“Perhaps remaining with your own kind would be best considering…” said the Asian dude. He was trying to keep me away from his brother, my lab partner. People and their issues. Then Meaghan piped up.
“What Thor and I shared was real. You think you know him, but you don’t,” replied Meaghan through clenched teeth to Suzy. “I see him for who he is.” She turned around and spoke to me. “I just wanted to tell you don’t forget who you are when you’re around him. Faster than you would think, you won’t know where you start and he ends. That’s all I came to say to you,” Meaghan finished with a breath. I should have thanked her and told her not to worry;this was just a case and I’m glad she was away from him if he made her feel like that. But I was working a case and rebuilding a character and I knew I had to sell her…so I crushed Meaghan and then I crushed Suzy right before I lit into Snow White Asian dude. The showstopper would end with Thor.

“I’m stronger than you. Hell, I’m stronger than Thor. People do to you what you let them do to you. I’m never off my game Red. And you Grey Girl,” I felt that inner-bitch reaching for my soul. I was going to need an exorcism. “I summer with my uncle in Morocco watching his prize winning pure-bread Arabians dance with each other on his two thousand acres of land. So please shut-up. I had no interest in Thor but now…And for you Snow White I can’t bow down at your feet like everyone else. The crown on my head won’t let me bend. Jiang is my lab partner and nothing more. None of you really want to try me.” I whipped scarf and hair at the same time and shouldered past them to the players.  I fused my body into Thor’s and deep throated his tongue right there in front of everyone. I pulled away from him.
“Let’s go,” I said seductively.
“I-I-I have to shower and get cleaned up,” Thor stammered out an excuse. He needed additional training. I shouldn’t have had to tell him twice.
“Let’s go,” I repeated with more seduction and less anger.
“Okay,” Thor said. He would learn that my mean side was never a place he wanted to visit or even pass through. I would build my reluctant king. I wanted to be queen in both of my worlds. Ambition was my flaw.

“I know, you got your eyes on me/ I feel you watchin me/ But it ain’t hard to see that you can’t see me/ You try, but what you think you saw/ Ain’t what you thought you saw/ You bed-da off not lookin at all”-The Watcher (Jay-Z, Rakim, Dr. Dre, Truth Hurts)

This is a little preview to the new novel Unnecessary Monsters by A.E. Derban Fall 2015. See what else Isa has been up to.

For another taste: http://www.aederban.com/summer-madness/

For the beginning of Isa:http://www.aederban.com/books/slipping-on-concrete/

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